It’s
early November, start of the winter. Winter which connects with flavor of love.
I don’t know why but winter always seems to be the season of love to me even then
when I was not in love. And now I realized I was right in that. Yes winter is the
season of love. Love grows as the air gets colder.
I am enjoying my first winter with her but destiny has planned something else for me. Today morning she shocked me with news that made my heart skip a few beats. I was taken back with her words that she just spoke “Someone is coming to see me. “Those 5 words were more than enough for me to log out from chat. Within a minute my mobile rang. It was hers. My mom was in front of me so I cut the call at first. It was never easy for me to cut her call. I rarely did that. Within seconds she called again and I was not able to cut the call again. I ran to the roof and picked it up, i did not even said hello , I was not able to find proper words, I didn’t knew what to say but then she can understand my silence too. After a few minutes I became normal and we talked for about 15 minutes. It was not that I was sad because she would go away from me but I was numb because it was happening so fast that I was not able to figure out what was happening with me. And I did not know how to react to that. But yes as always talking to her was the best thing I could do. And yet again it made me happy. It was always like that ,whatever may be the reason of my sadness ,it just disappears as soon as she appears in front of me in any way. Whether its chatting or her voice on the cell& at times even her pic. All have the same effect on me. After talking to her I was feeling nice. I forgot that someone is coming to see her. I was not afraid now that she would go away from me. Because she said.“ She may not be near me always but she will be with me. I just have to feel her.”
It’s Sunday. Usually on Sunday we chat less than any other day because she has more work to do at home and more importantly I have my parents at home. But today the reason of us not being on chat was different.Today can be an important Sunday of our lives. She can be taken by someone else for forever. Yes today a guy was coming to see my darling. I was laughing thinking of it, not because i wanted to get rid of those thoughts but thinking that what kind of joke is this in my life . She is the best girl I can ever imagine of and here some guy will choose her. It was making no sense to me. I always felt like she was the one who should have right to select a guy for herself. She was just the perfect girl. But this society has its own rules. Feelings are worthless.It’s just about the rules... those f*****g rules...
Its been almost 16 hours I have not talked her. It never happened before .She always made sure that she talked me after every few hours whatever the situation is .I still remember once she was not able to talk me so she just called me and started to sing so that I could hear her voice and I loved that .She has the sweetest voice I ever heard and when she sings one could not have asked for more but today I guess she was not able to call me and I was restless. Irritated I was missing her presence. I just received a text from her that her marriage is fixed and 2 days from now she is going to be engaged. Sundays always had special surprises for me.People eat Sunday specials on. Sunday but I make my Sunday’s special in another way,in a way that it will always taste same ,always sour. Ha!ha!ha!at least i have some predictability regarding these Sundays in my life. All of them are same.
It’s past mid night and I am still awake... I am not sleepy. I had not heard her voice and I wish to hear it badly. I am on my bed but not able to sleep. I am just changing my sleeping position but it’s not working.One can’t feel comfortable by luxury when you are not at peace from inside. I was thinking of her ,what she would be doing just when my phone rang. I did not even bother to look at the display because I knew it will not be anyone else but her.
As soon as I picked it up, I don’t know what happened to me, I was unable to control myself , I was feeling bad but now I just felt an emotional outburst as soon as I heard her voice. And I started to sob on the phone .She told me to calm down. It’s never a good sight to see a man cry but I was fortunate enough that there was no one to see me cry ,just she was with me on the other side of the cell. She said lots of thing in order to make me stop. But I was not able to speak to her .All I could do was to sob and hear her.I slept with her voice in my ears, I do not remember when I slept and don’t know how long she was on the line in the night. I just slept embracing her thoughts I do not want her to go away from me.
I am enjoying my first winter with her but destiny has planned something else for me. Today morning she shocked me with news that made my heart skip a few beats. I was taken back with her words that she just spoke “Someone is coming to see me. “Those 5 words were more than enough for me to log out from chat. Within a minute my mobile rang. It was hers. My mom was in front of me so I cut the call at first. It was never easy for me to cut her call. I rarely did that. Within seconds she called again and I was not able to cut the call again. I ran to the roof and picked it up, i did not even said hello , I was not able to find proper words, I didn’t knew what to say but then she can understand my silence too. After a few minutes I became normal and we talked for about 15 minutes. It was not that I was sad because she would go away from me but I was numb because it was happening so fast that I was not able to figure out what was happening with me. And I did not know how to react to that. But yes as always talking to her was the best thing I could do. And yet again it made me happy. It was always like that ,whatever may be the reason of my sadness ,it just disappears as soon as she appears in front of me in any way. Whether its chatting or her voice on the cell& at times even her pic. All have the same effect on me. After talking to her I was feeling nice. I forgot that someone is coming to see her. I was not afraid now that she would go away from me. Because she said.“ She may not be near me always but she will be with me. I just have to feel her.”
It’s Sunday. Usually on Sunday we chat less than any other day because she has more work to do at home and more importantly I have my parents at home. But today the reason of us not being on chat was different.Today can be an important Sunday of our lives. She can be taken by someone else for forever. Yes today a guy was coming to see my darling. I was laughing thinking of it, not because i wanted to get rid of those thoughts but thinking that what kind of joke is this in my life . She is the best girl I can ever imagine of and here some guy will choose her. It was making no sense to me. I always felt like she was the one who should have right to select a guy for herself. She was just the perfect girl. But this society has its own rules. Feelings are worthless.It’s just about the rules... those f*****g rules...
Its been almost 16 hours I have not talked her. It never happened before .She always made sure that she talked me after every few hours whatever the situation is .I still remember once she was not able to talk me so she just called me and started to sing so that I could hear her voice and I loved that .She has the sweetest voice I ever heard and when she sings one could not have asked for more but today I guess she was not able to call me and I was restless. Irritated I was missing her presence. I just received a text from her that her marriage is fixed and 2 days from now she is going to be engaged. Sundays always had special surprises for me.People eat Sunday specials on. Sunday but I make my Sunday’s special in another way,in a way that it will always taste same ,always sour. Ha!ha!ha!at least i have some predictability regarding these Sundays in my life. All of them are same.
It’s past mid night and I am still awake... I am not sleepy. I had not heard her voice and I wish to hear it badly. I am on my bed but not able to sleep. I am just changing my sleeping position but it’s not working.One can’t feel comfortable by luxury when you are not at peace from inside. I was thinking of her ,what she would be doing just when my phone rang. I did not even bother to look at the display because I knew it will not be anyone else but her.
As soon as I picked it up, I don’t know what happened to me, I was unable to control myself , I was feeling bad but now I just felt an emotional outburst as soon as I heard her voice. And I started to sob on the phone .She told me to calm down. It’s never a good sight to see a man cry but I was fortunate enough that there was no one to see me cry ,just she was with me on the other side of the cell. She said lots of thing in order to make me stop. But I was not able to speak to her .All I could do was to sob and hear her.I slept with her voice in my ears, I do not remember when I slept and don’t know how long she was on the line in the night. I just slept embracing her thoughts I do not want her to go away from me.
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