City of Her - IV

4 “How it all started”

It is said love cannot be arranged or forced upon,It happens suddenly and automatically. And more often than not it chooses a strange way to enter into the lives of two people and shake it upside down. Same rule was applied for me. I had lost faith in love and love stories because I had already tasted the bitter taste of love before in my life. But U can’t control your heart. And once again I lost it.My heart was again in love. My heart had subdued to the power of her love . It was just another day for me. I was sitting on the computer surfing the internet. Doing the same things that most of the youth do these days. I was on a social networking website when I came across her. From the very first day since our conversation started I felt something different for her ,From the very first moment I felt as if I connected to her so well .Our thought processes were almost similar and we did not take much time to jell together . Our first conversation lasted for hours and continued till we both felt sleepy. I am on my bed ,a few minutes ago, I was feeling sleepy but now I feel as if I am restless, not able to sleep,my heart is forcing me to recall those lovely conversations that I used to have with her. My brain wants to get rid of her thoughts because she was just another girl on a social network. At last I fall asleep with her thoughts in my mind and I want this night to pass quickly so that I can chat with her again. Explore her more. Know her more. How does she look? Lots of queries & Lots of unanswered questions. It has almost been a week since we first talked and shared each other’s lives. From sorrows to happiness , unaccomplished dreams to fantasies. From the darkest to the brightest parts of our lives.She was mine now and I admired her strength that she was still standing tall after all the sufferings she had taken in her life. Life has never been easy for anyone. . It treats everyone on same scale. And after knowing her past I felt more attracted towards her. She had, in a way, transformed my views of looking at life to a larger extent. She was changing me slowly and after a long time I was not reluctant to adapt to this change Now it’s my daily routine to chat with her. In the morning, afternoon and at night.It seemed like we were spending our days on the virtual world only and the nights were spent recalling those chats. We had adjusted our routine works to suit each other.My day began with her sweet melodious voice, and I slept remembering her calm words. Even if I was awake I wouldn't get up from my bed till I hear her voice. As if her voice was mandatory for my day to begin .Within a few days she had become a sweet heart from a stranger.She seemed just perfect for me. And I wished this to continue forever. Few days back I came to know that her parents wanted her to get married and this brought about a change in our relationship. She wanted to finish her studies , her long lived dream. And I found myself somewhere lost between her parents ‘wish and her dream. Still I could not go away from her and with each passing day I was getting more and more close to her. Knowing the day she will accomplish her dream, will be the day when the count-down of our separation would start . Yet i was happy for her. I was getting to spend some precious time with her. And as it’s rightly said good things always comes in small packages, so did my time with her. I was used to her presence. I missed her even if I had to stay away from her for even an hour .She was now an integral part of my life. A day without her felt like a day wasted.

Today I was very happy. It must have been my good deeds which were paying off now. It had been less than 2 weeks and I was about to visit her city. I badly wanted to meet her and I was about to meet her, For my family it was just another visit to my uncle’s place but for me it was special because this time my purpose was different. As expected she was very excited after hearing that I was coming to see her. My love life was moving at fast pace...................................................... TO be continued City of Her- III

Life: a process of evolving

                                     As i sit  down writing my thoughts, another day of life has ended and so It did for many of them whom I know and millions of those whom I don’t, it’s also a new day for millions of those who share a different time zone from me, and with each passing day we end up adding a day to our life.
                   every new day starts with very familiar rays of sun and chirping of birds , yet every new day have some surprises for us , something new to learn , something  to gain and many things to experience , it also have another 24 hours for us to realize that life has so much to offer to us and we only end up wasting this very day in order to make sure we enjoy any other day in future which never comes , life always tries to make us understand that its beyond worrying too much and best time to enjoy is present , that is why it’s called   PRESENT  a  GIFT from  life  to each one of us.               
               
each one of us is habitual of blaming their life or luck for everything which not went according to their wish ,from smallest to biggest  problem of life we look  someone or something to put blame on  instead  looking for possible shortcoming, each one of us thinks of  himself  as   the most  troubled one but it’s not the case.
               
           everyone in life have his own challenges ,equal share of happiness and sorrow but we always envy someone else ,and many of us  would readily agree to switch their life by looking at  bright side of other’s life & overlooking the dark side of it. A bald man envies someone with nice hairs and the one who has got hairs is not happy with the curls he has got , similarly each one of  us have different difficulties in life, for an example one might suffer loss of his parents at tender age while other may go through a life threatening event,both are more or less  same kind of blow in one’s life, it clearly indicate that the almighty  is never partial and at the end of life, things get balanced and  finally its comes  to us to understand that our existence in this world is as much important as anyone else is , and we should  not envy for what we don’t have rather we should  cherish  what we have got.                                            
              In this world a purpose is assigned to every single soul  and with it,  assigned a set of  problems which we can term as checkpoint  which are needed to be conquered in order to move ahead in life, life would have been easy without  problems or hard times but then joy of success would also have been less sweet ,it’s purely because both are opposite side of a single coin, there would be no importance of sun if  there was no existence of night, no joy of success if there is nothing like failure.

                   There  are failure in every one’s life but we must not get afraid of it and loose hope,there will be frustration because of it but we should not loose  focus on our goal ,and should look over  what went wrong and correct it in next attempt , failure only points at one direction that there  is lack of effort and desire, in failure also one gets to know another way of how not do to things. meaning of Success is  not only to be first always, it means to keep progressing from where u end up last time, and this process of improvement must not end.
                 To wake up every day with a goal that I will make this day better one from yesterday is the true essence of life, in this process we should embrace all the positive things around us and let go of all the negativity and enjoy whatever life has to offer to you and get better and better with each passing day just like a bottle of wine.

My opinion about LOVE

City of Her - III

3 “LOVE...it’s never easy”

I was in a train returning home after having one of the most eventful days of my life or you can say the most cherished day of my life. I was happy, was smiling all along, a big fat smile. I was constantly chatting with her through SMS’s, where she was asking me to come back. But both of us knew it was impossible. I was thinking about what I am up to. And what wrong can I do if I am in love with a girl. Yes there was one thing uncommon that she was too old for me. Shocking isin’t it? Is it that much of an issue to separate me from her? I am afraid it was... I knew that she was elder to me from the very first interaction I had with her, it was not love at first sight, but it happened gradually.. love can’t be expressed by forcing yourself and nor can you avoid it, it just happens when you meet someone who understands you just like you yourself do, and she was “that” girl in my case, I never needed to explain anything to her as she always knew it well before I tell or ask her.. She cared for me more than even I cared for myself. She loved me as if I was her Baby, Yes she treated me as her child because she was elder to me. Is it a crime to love someone elder to you? For me Love doesn’t know any age bar. I love her as much as anyone can love his or her beloved. My love for her is not any less I didn’t know what I should do. Love leaves you clueless at times. I can’t go back from where we started and there is no hope ahead after a certain time. And each time one of us brought this conversation up. The other chooses not to discuss it and leave it to our fate. Sometime it’s best thing to do so. And we decided again to enjoy our time together as we were doing it till then. And I must say that enjoying your present is always the best option when you don’t have any plans for tomorrow. Our love was pure. True and away from any false commitments. We knew that we will separate from each other at some point in time .still our love was growing with each passing day. Talks of her marriage in her home were more frequent those days and all I could do was to sit back and hear about them. I was not angry with her that she was about to leave me and get married... I was equally culprit that I was not strong enough to stand up in front of my parents, why?? I could have tried?? No I could not because I had my reasons and those were strong enough to hold me back from doing what I should have. But I had accepted the fact that we were not meant to be together. Still what I could do is to love her forever. It was for 3 months that we had been together and it was a great experience to be with her, I was having the best time of my life. To know that she is mine for time being was a delightful feeling. Always believed that love cannot be measured in time slots or in materialistic things, it’s always measured by the depth of understanding between a couple. And in my case no one will understand me better than she does. Those were my moment of happiness, she gave me all that. It was her birthday. And of course it was a very special day for me too, I was behaving like it was my birthday. But I was a bit sad because I was not able to make it to her city this time, I did not have any valid reasons to give to my parents. And she also had to be with her parents, so we choose to celebrate it together Online. Yup webcameras do cover up distance at times .at least they did for us. All I could do for her on her birthday was to just recall that meeting with her and wrote how I came across her and got to know her. Never thought of writing it. But again who thought of falling in love too .........................................................................................................................To be continued

City of Her- II