City of Her - III

3 “LOVE...it’s never easy”

I was in a train returning home after having one of the most eventful days of my life or you can say the most cherished day of my life. I was happy, was smiling all along, a big fat smile. I was constantly chatting with her through SMS’s, where she was asking me to come back. But both of us knew it was impossible. I was thinking about what I am up to. And what wrong can I do if I am in love with a girl. Yes there was one thing uncommon that she was too old for me. Shocking isin’t it? Is it that much of an issue to separate me from her? I am afraid it was... I knew that she was elder to me from the very first interaction I had with her, it was not love at first sight, but it happened gradually.. love can’t be expressed by forcing yourself and nor can you avoid it, it just happens when you meet someone who understands you just like you yourself do, and she was “that” girl in my case, I never needed to explain anything to her as she always knew it well before I tell or ask her.. She cared for me more than even I cared for myself. She loved me as if I was her Baby, Yes she treated me as her child because she was elder to me. Is it a crime to love someone elder to you? For me Love doesn’t know any age bar. I love her as much as anyone can love his or her beloved. My love for her is not any less I didn’t know what I should do. Love leaves you clueless at times. I can’t go back from where we started and there is no hope ahead after a certain time. And each time one of us brought this conversation up. The other chooses not to discuss it and leave it to our fate. Sometime it’s best thing to do so. And we decided again to enjoy our time together as we were doing it till then. And I must say that enjoying your present is always the best option when you don’t have any plans for tomorrow. Our love was pure. True and away from any false commitments. We knew that we will separate from each other at some point in time .still our love was growing with each passing day. Talks of her marriage in her home were more frequent those days and all I could do was to sit back and hear about them. I was not angry with her that she was about to leave me and get married... I was equally culprit that I was not strong enough to stand up in front of my parents, why?? I could have tried?? No I could not because I had my reasons and those were strong enough to hold me back from doing what I should have. But I had accepted the fact that we were not meant to be together. Still what I could do is to love her forever. It was for 3 months that we had been together and it was a great experience to be with her, I was having the best time of my life. To know that she is mine for time being was a delightful feeling. Always believed that love cannot be measured in time slots or in materialistic things, it’s always measured by the depth of understanding between a couple. And in my case no one will understand me better than she does. Those were my moment of happiness, she gave me all that. It was her birthday. And of course it was a very special day for me too, I was behaving like it was my birthday. But I was a bit sad because I was not able to make it to her city this time, I did not have any valid reasons to give to my parents. And she also had to be with her parents, so we choose to celebrate it together Online. Yup webcameras do cover up distance at times .at least they did for us. All I could do for her on her birthday was to just recall that meeting with her and wrote how I came across her and got to know her. Never thought of writing it. But again who thought of falling in love too .........................................................................................................................To be continued

City of Her- II